So… it’s been awhile since I did a “Micropreemie FAQ” post here. Honestly, it’s kind of funny to me to think back to when EVERYTHING I wrote here was about micropreemies. I can’t really imagine having been able to keep that up for over 3 1/2 years, so it’s a good thing I branched out.
Today, I’d like to address some of the questions I get regarding what C. looked like way back when she was born.
1. ”I know you say she was small, like 1 lb 5 oz small, but I can’t even imagine what a baby that size looks like.”
Well, I’ll say this. If you’ve ever held a 20 oz bottle of soda? That’s about how much she weighed. (She was one ounce heavier– well, until she lost weight in the early days. Then, she was a couple ounces lighter.) If you’ve ever seen a footlong hotdog? She was a tad bit shorter. If you’ve ever held a lime? That’s how big her head was. She was very, very small.
2. ”Other than being tiny, did she look like a typical/normal baby?”
More than you might imagine, yes. She had a head full of dark hair, fingernails, and toenails. There was no denying “what” she was– very much a baby. However, there were distinct differences, too. C’s eyes were still fused shut when she was born. We had to wait a couple weeks before we would see her eyes at all. She also had little to no body fat. Her limbs were exceptionally slim and her veins were visible all over because her skin was essentially transparent. Another result of the lack of body fat was the lack of a butt-crack. I know, I know, that sounds funny, but it’s true. She really did NOT have a crack. She still has a skinny, bony backside, but there are plenty of full-termers who do, too.
3. ”What did you think when you looked at her?”
I thought she was beautiful. Really and truly. I was also completely blown away by how very FORMED she already was at that point. Was she skinny and wrinkly and covered with tubes? Yes. But she was also this amazing, teeny-tiny and totally complete human being. I remember being positively overcome at the idea that some states made it legal to KILL her at that point. While I am opposed to abortion at any point, it simply blew my mind that anyone, anywhere could argue that that child wasn’t a human with full human rights. I gazed down at my BABY, not my fetus. (If you’re interested in my mom’s first impressions of C., you can read them right here.)
So, there you go. That’s a little more about what C. looked like. While, from a purely objective standpoint, she may not have been the “cutest” baby I ever laid eyes on, she was no doubt one of the most miraculously beautiful.